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I'm glad I posted about some recent wins not long ago because this has been a rough month.

  • Brian fell off the wagon right after we went to visit him. And that trip itself was hell.
  • I have to decide if I'm going to take the Madison job or just move somewhere else. The anxiety is crushing me.
  • I had to tell my bosses what was going on, which was also very stressful because I don't know what I'm doing. And the gossip mill in Milwaukee is just disgusting, especially for an academic division. That shit needs to get curbed.
  • I would have to move to Madison in less than a month. Luckily, Tina is letting me stay with her for a while, but that is its own stress. Moving in temporarily with someone you barely know. You can never get comfortable.

On the positive (because I need to do this for my own sanity):
  • Annika Collier from high school (!) gave me a very personalized, in-depth tour of Madison today and shared her role as an IT project manager. What I learned (positive):
    • Madison probably has more food options than Milwaukee in terms of diversity. It's also supposed to be pretty good
    • It doesn't revolve around UW-Madison
    • The area around Madison is very livable, and you can get most places in 10-30 minutes
    • The commute would be easy
    • There a lot of great comedians that come here, lots of drag and wacky events
    • The aerial scene is huuuugggeee. But pole is not really. Although probably not any less than Milwaukee.
    • IT project management is most about creative team problem solving and critical thinking (developing and tracking goals, communicating needs with clients, finding holes and filling/fixing them, communicating things into laymen language, basically making processes more seamless, making sure projects get done)
    • IT project management sounds fun and right up my alley. It's also more or less the same thing as Quality Assurance/Management 
SO. Bottom line: I may really like this job. I could maybe like Madison for a little while. But it still makes me feel very claustrophobic. 

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